I have taken up the #reverb10 challenge. Today’s writing prompt is:
Encapsulate the year 2010 in one word. Explain why you’re choosing that word. Now, imagine it’s one year from today, what would you like the word to be that captures 2011 for you?
So, this year can be summed up with “Growth.”
2010 has been a year of tremendous internal growth for me. Not all of it has been easy, and not all of it has been by my own effort. I had to face myself in deep ways, and while I like most of what I see, some of it calls for me to do a lot of mindful work. One of the things most present in my thinking is habits (as you may have noticed from some of my posting) This year has shown me that many of my habits are not well thought out, or terribly positive. I am very happy with things like my meditation practice and that prompting from good friends and teachers have made my habits, both positive and negative, more exposed. That does not mean I can change my actions on the spot, but the habits driving my actions and reactions are much more obvious to my mind’s eye. That concious recognition is a tremendous thing.
While sitting on my meditation cushion on January 1st, 2010, I had (for lack of a better word) a profound experience of satori. The echoes of that experience are still present in a very loud way. I have not suddenly become, “Mr. Super Easy To Be Around.” I have many friends who will laugh at that one! What it does mean is that many of my inner workings came out of the shadows allowing me to examine them in ways that were not open to me before. I could try to describe the experience, but my previous attempts have shown me that words fail to encapsulate the event. Many friends have listened to me try. I am working on a book exploring that (and other moments of) satori and my spiritual path. Perhaps I’ll get that done in 2011.
It has been a tremendous year and a year of exceptional movement forward. Not all of it has been comfortable, but as I look back, I am grateful for it all.
So, what word would I like to capture the essence of 2011? Hmmm … I am not usually one for guessing at the future, but if I had my druthers the word would be “Playful.”