Re-Discovering Community

Ok, couple of days behind, on my reverb10# prompts.  Here is the one from December 7th by Cali Harris:

Community. Where have you discovered community, online or otherwise, in 2010? What community would you like to join, create or more deeply connect with in 2011?

This year has been one of coming out of a semi-retreat from ordinary life.  It has been one of exploring the communities I am in and re-assessing my place in them and their place in my life.  Some had to be let go, some had to be committed to more strongly.  As the year comes to a close I find myself poking my head back into various circles that have interested me and am slowly building up a community of friends who share my spiritual interests.  That is something I hope for more of in 2011.

Making It

Here we go (a day late) with the prompt for December 6th for the #reverb10 challenge.  Being a veteran of 3 NaNoWriMo extravaganzas I scoff at missed deadlines and simply make it up with more effort later. Hah!  Anyways…. here’s the prompt from Gretchen Rubin who just happens to write a blog I love (!), the Happiness Project.  (Coincidentally her latest video blog is right in line with my earlier post, Writing Obstacles, where she just happens to mention NaNoWriMo Hah!))  Here’s the prompt –

Make. What was the last thing you made? What materials did you use? Is there something you want to make, but you need to clear some time for it?

The last thing I made, hmmm…. Well…

Dinner!  Chicken apple and red tomato sausage with sauteed peppers, onions, spinach and a touch of spaghetti sauce over red quinoa and sprinkled with goat feta.  Yum!

I love cooking!  I am getting into it more lately (it goes in swings) and we (Daisy and I) recently rescued our cookbooks from storage.  So, more to come!

What do I want to make? MY BOOK! I have been working on a book about my spiritual practice for a couple years now.  It’s finally picking up steam.  Maybe if I take the advice of Gretchen (and myself) and work on it every day it will actually happen.  Hmmm… food for though.  (See what I did there?)


Letting Go

Here we are again with another round of the #reverb10 prompts!  This one is brought by Alice Bradley:

Let Go. What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why?

That’s a tough one. Mostly because I would rather not revisit it.  But, since it’s here…

This year I had to let go two friendships.  One was a friendship that had really been dissolving for years.  The final letting go was facilitated by an unfortunate breaking of trust (I being the guilty one) which was the signal that finally drove home the fact that we had stopped being more than acquaintances long before.  It hurt to let go of the friendship, but in an objective analysis I did not lose anything since the friendship had already faded.

The other was much harder.  It was a close friendship that had gotten intense and emotionally intimate.  This friend was faced with some incredibly horrific life circumstances, and I was part of a group that took on the responsibility for helping her with the day to day business of living that she was physically and emotionally not up to handling.  There were points of good progress, but also set backs.  In the end it became clear that we had become more crutch than cane and our help was being taken for granted.  When the disappointment and hurt on both sides came to a head it was clear to me that the only thing I could do to be at all helpful was to walk away.  Without a doubt that was one of the most difficult decisions I have had to make in my life to date.

It’s hard to let go.  But, sometimes it is a foregone conclusion, or the only healthy channel available.