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The Great Answer(s)


24 Jul

Life is a mystery. That much seems certain. No matter how you look at it, eventually you come up against a wall of “I don’t know.” That’s what the mystics through the ages have told us. Still, we keep looking, hoping to find some great answer to the question life presents.

The funny thing about questions, and answers, is they can be very different depending on how you ask them, who you ask, where the asking is coming from (it’s underlying motivations, concepts and context), and where it is going to. The same question asked from different places has a very different feel, and possibly different answers.

I propose the following as a model of determining the answers that could be given to the great question of life. It is based off of the types of bodies used in Advaita Vedanta exploration and inquiry. Note that in Vedanta, “body” does not necessarily mean the flesh and bone. It means the energetic/physical/emotional/spiritual structure of a certain level of consciousness.

First up we have the Gross Body. The gross body is the body of flesh and bone that immediately comes to mind when we say “body.” It includes the brain, the physical component of what we call the “mind.” It is typified by the waking state of consciousness, and is our work-a-day interface with the world. The concerns of this “body” are the concerns of the animal, namely: Security, Food, Reproduction and Shelter. When one of these concerns is in question, the instinct driven gross body is concerned with fulfilling that need. When they are all fulfilled, and not in immediate danger, the gross body can relax. It’s questions are answered, and in a word the answer is – Comfort. When one is not hungry, not in immediate threat, not exposed to dangerous environmental conditions, and when the continuation of the species is not in imminent question, the gross body is comfortable and at peace.

Next up, the Subtle Body. This is the body of the intellect, dreams, and planning. It is typified by the dreaming state, but note that day dreams and imagination is also covered under the umbrella of the subtle body. The typical term applied here is mind, but the full support for the functioning of this body extends beyond the physical organ of the brain. In order for this body to exist the energetic support of the whole organism is needed, and research is showing that the energetic presence of this body extends beyond the limits of the skin. The concerns of this body are ones of planning, dreaming, goal setting, and analyzing of input. Thinking and inquiring. The interesting, and unique factor about this body is that its answers to its concerns are: more questions. Almost as soon as we learn to speak, the bane of parents the world over is on our lips from waking to sleep, “Why?” We want to explore the realm of thoughts and concepts with a passion, always digging deeper. “But, why? But, why? But, why?” The font of questions is never exhausted. As we grow the questions become more sophisticated, but they don’t go away. Every “answer” always seems to lead to more questions in the realm of the subtle body. As we become indoctrinated adults, conforming to the accepted social/cultural norms of our time and place we may bury some of these questions, but the dirt covering them is always thin and rarely well compacted. The questions crouch ready to burst free at a moments notice.

Socrates is the paragon of this mind, never deadened by “growing up.” He was an absolute devotee of the question. His end is a wonderful illustration of the power of questions, and the possibility of upsetting apple carts with them.

Now we come to the Causal Body. This is the body of raw being. Pure suchness. The very fact that you are. It is typified by the state of deep sleep. The common experience is that we experience nothing in this state, since there are no object here (unlike the toe stubbing rocks of the gross body/waking realm, and the neon glowing rocks of the subtle body/dreaming realm) there is nothing to form memory with. However, when seekers would bring their doubts of the validity of this realm to the sage Ramana Maharshi, he would respond with, “If you have no perception in the deep sleep state, how is it that when you wake you can say you slept well?” Something continues through this state, some thread of knowing, the subtlest expression of, “I am”, “I exist.” It is that continuity which makes up the experience of these individual unique lives. Long term meditators (those with 10-20 thousand hours of accumulated practice) and/or enlightened humans sometimes report a phenomenon of a continuing awareness that penetrates even into this realm. What most of us must be satisfied with is a vague pleasantness of a night spent sleeping safely.

Here the question is one of pure existence. Continuity of the individual self as a unique expression of reality. The answer is presence. That fundamental knowing that “I am”, the raw feeling of being you without reference to any memory, circumstance, or context. As long as that is so, the question is answered.

Now we start getting spooky. The next “body” on the Advaita Vedanta scale of things is called Turiya. Literally it means, “the fourth”, often referred to as the witness. It is the body which witnesses all the other states. This is the capacity to know that I am comfortable, I have questions, and I am. The unique facet of this body is that anything which appears within it cannot be it. If it is seen, it is not you as the witness.

The only question here is, is something occurring? The answer is silence. The witness has nothing with which to speak, or formulate an answer because anything which could speak, or formulate is something which can be seen and therefore is not the witness. Silence; vast, simple, embracing, complete is the expression of Turiya. It is the void and silence which allows everything else to be.

Thirty spokes converge upon a single hub; It is on the hole in the center that the use of the cart hinges. We make a bowl or cup from a lump of clay; It is the empty space within the vessel that makes it useful. We make doors and windows for a room; It is the empty spaces that make the room livable. Thus, take advantage of what is visible, by making use of what is not visible. ~ Lao Tzu in the Tao Te Ching

Last we come to the most tenuous, and most absolute. Even talking about this body is actually impossible. We have to be happy with approximations. This is the “body” of Turiya-tita, the non-dual. The stark reality of not-two. This is the truth of all of reality, swallowed in one gulp. Nothing left out, nothing excluded, no boundaries. All of what is, no parts, only portions. The witness and what is witnessed felt through as inseparable. Just this. It. What is. Here there is no answer, because there are no questions. There is nothing outside of, or in addition to what is so how could a question even arise. Just suchness, the paper upon which all words are written.

So, there you have it in a nutshell. The great answers to the great questions of each facet of this wonderful reality from the totality all the way through to a unique individual self manifesting as a human being.

If you are relatively comfortable, know that you are, are aware of the space between objects and the silence between sounds, exist as a portion of what is, and still have questions then all your questions are answered.

Easy speezy!

I have tons of questions, and love them. I’d love to hear yours, or your comments, or whatever. Until we meet again, cheers!

Enlightenment (whatever that means)


16 Jul

Warning: What follows is a bit of a rant. If that’s not your vibe as of this now, move along. Have a great day! ;)

First, for the non-rant. Check out this cool article over at Thank God for Evolution, Reality: God’s Secular Name. Most excellent. My favorite is the Philip K. Dick quote it opens with, “Reality is that which, when you stop believing it, doesn’t go away.”

Rant Begins

I have being seeing some version of the phrase, “Enlightenment (whatever that means)” with ever increasing frequency in the portions of the blogosphere, and the wider internet around which I stomp. Today I did a constrictive google search on the phrase and got 27,500 hits. Shiva knows how many I would get with a few variations thrown in.

In a word, I hate that phrase.It offends me on several levels. First, it is often used as a shield against debate, shared inquiry, questioning, or flat out BS calling. It’s a way to spout on with a facade of authority while remaining closed to (and defended against) differing opinions. I see it as a very cowardly way to share an opinion. (BTW – I have been guilty of using the phrase too, so don’t go hunting to find a quote to throw in my face because you will succeed. However, I saw the fence-sitting and wishy-washyness enough to stop using it. When I start using it again tomorrow you can wag your finger and say, “Hah!” Cool?) Personally, I prefer, “I have no real idea what enlightenment is, but here’s my take, FWIW.” (Your mileage may vary.)

Second, what the hell kind of good essay writing/theorizing do these people think they are engaging in? If you don’t have a good working definition for a term, don’t make it a corner stone of your point! Please!

Whatever that means? Well, I’ll tell you. Here are my personal working definitions. They are what I use to wrestle with the concept, and they have been most fruitful for me. Take ‘em, or leave ‘em. It’s all good. If you don’t like one of these (or if you do) I would love to hear your personal working definition in the comments.

  1. “Enlightenment is the real knowledge that you are a robot and have been programmed, and that you can re-program yourself according to your own true will.” The great thing about this definition is that it is not exclusive. It does not say that you cannot re-program your cultural and societal habitual behaviors (programming) without enlightenment. It does not say that enlightenment is required to know that you are a robot (to whatever level you accept that label) and are subject to programming. What it does say is that enlightenment changes knowing to “real knowing” or through-and-through final conviction and peace-making and acceptance of the situation. (“Balls to bones.”) It also does not say that once that real knowledge is in place that you suddenly become instantly re-habituated to perfect never flawed behaviors, just that you have a great opportunity (and leg-up) to get there.
  2. “Enlightenment is the dissolving of the lie that you are this individual life.” With the dissolution of that lie comes a great freedom to act. You no longer live your life driven at the core by worry and concern about living the right life, living the life you are living correctly, or ever-vigilant for the end of the life you are living. You are not the life, and living from that makes everything much better, across the board. It does not mean the dissolution of fear that a rabid dog is charging you, or that you may have hurt someone’s feelings deeply by something you said/did/failed to do, or that you may have screwed up your financial situation by missing a credit card payment, or that you are going to be late to the play. Those are all perfectly reasonable (and necessary) fears that arise within the life which you are experiencing, but which you fundamentally are not. Nothing that happens within the life hurts, or helps you even if it hurts, or helps the life. (Which is precious, BTW.)
  3. “Enlightenment is state in which anything said, or done, by a sage/saint/guru/master is as obviously so as your own breathing. It all makes total, and common-place, sense.” That does not mean you become instantly capable of saying or doing such things. It just means when you see, or hear them, you smile and nod with a soft inward, “Amen. Preach it, sister!”
  4. “Enlightenment is seeing that there is truly not-two, anywhere to be found.” When considering the totality of what is, it becomes apparent that nothing is ever added to what is from the outside. If it were then the place where the new stuff came from would also be part of what is. Likewise, nothing ever leaves what is. If it did, then where it went to would also be part of what is. What is, is in constant motion, to be sure, but it is all motion within the one thing which is.

Those are my current working definitions of what is fundamentally undefinable. Just like any term it exists for convenience (and not confusion damn it!), and is subject to change and evolution over time just like any term or thing. (Remember when “bad” did not possibly mean “good?”) Also, just like any word said ever, it’s an opinion. You can only ever speak about things, you cannot speak them into being so. The word enlightenment is just a word, and only useful insofar as it allows for effective and useful discourse. The state itself, just like the truth of a comfy cafe chair from which to issue forth blog rants, cannot be spoken into existence, it can only be spoken about.

Rant Ends

I freely claim, and assert the truth of all four of the above definitions within my own experience and life as being so and fully functional.

Cheers, and thanks for listening!

I eagerly await your commentary.

Fanmail Feedback At The Speed Of Information


03 Jun

There are certain things I simply adore about the information age. One of those things is the ease, and speed, with which I (as a fan) can connect with someone whose work I like. The latest iteration of this phenomenon for me is Mark Hurst, author of Bit Literacy. I found the book a real eye-opener chock-full-’o incredibly useful distinctions and tips for navigating the information age and managing the often overwhelming volume of information the age asks us to deal with.

I wrote a review of the book on Amazon, and the next morning got an email from Mark thanking me. How cool is that! In the ever shrinking and accelerating realm of human interaction that the information age, and its physical expressions like the internet, the ability to connect simply, painlessly, and directly always fills me with a great sense of hope.

The copy I originally read of Bit Literacy was from my local library. After getting the letter from Mark I wanted to show my support, but I still did not want to buy another paper book. The solution? The Kindle app for my iPhone. Bingo. Four bucks later I get to vote with my money for an author I enjoy, and I have the content for easy future reference.

Cheers!

Great Article: How To Choose Happiness


25 May

Great article over at Marc and Angel Hack Life, How To Choose Happiness. I don’t personally ascribe to the view that happiness is a state of mind. But, really my opinion is a matter of a different perspective and is not worth quibbling since from one point of view, and definition of the word “happiness” it is a state of mind. Be that as it may, I’ll tell you what really excites me about this article.

I have always been turned-on by the ideal of the Warrior for Peace. It’s a delicious paradox that does not need solving, but whose embrace leads to a rich outlook on life and a useful personal philosophy. In my view, life is a constant battle. Not a battle for survival of the body, although that does happen all to often, but rather a battle of ideologies. Most of us truck through life struggling to put together a philosophy that at first makes our lives better, and as we evolve also makes life in general better. As we soldier along we are servants to, and of, our prevailing philosophy, no matter how haphazardly those may be slapped together. We champion that philosophy in all of our interactions, and the tools we use are the expressions and communications of our beliefs. We use phrases and body language as weapons to wage these battles to keep our set of beliefs strong and alive. For the most part we do this unconsciously and perfectly innocently.

To engage this in an active way is a much more useful way to wage this battle, and allows for us to truly consider what we are championing. We can construct a philosophy of peace and mindfulness (as an example) and pick our words so as to advance that cause. In the inevitable bumping against of our myriad philosophies and belief structures, we can choose an active rather than passive stance. That, to me, is the Way of the Warrior of Peace. It is how a soldier in the army of peace can fight the battle for more peace in this world. Not as a method to dominate another’s set of beliefs, but as a way to test our own and to spread the possibility of such an outlook. Social engineering on the personal scale.

A Day (And Night) Of Decapitations


24 Feb

I recently had the privilege of attending a Headless workshop with Richard Lang. But, that’s not how the day started.

It was February, Friday the 13th (just two Fridays ago) and it was also the release day for the latest in the line of Friday the 13th movies. My brother, and I, had a long standing tradition of seeing the Friday the 13th movies on opening day. We decided to resurrect the tradition on this particular occasion. We saw the 2pm showing, which was pleasantly uncrowded being in the middle of the day. I can’t say I didn’t enjoy the movie, but such things were definitely more thrilling as a kid. One thing that the movie did have lots of was decapitations, of the involuntary type. That contrasted well with the evenings event, since they involved voluntary decapitations.

The drive to Berkeley was slow, the rain had proved (again) to be a problem for Bay Area drivers, and there was a minor accident on the Bay Bridge which had traffic backed up all the way to the city. It also didn’t help that I had left the city at 5:30 on a Friday. What would, on off hours, have been a 25 minute drive ended up being just under an hour. I assumed that my late arrival would not be too much of a trouble since I was going to a spiritual workshop (they’re supposed to be filled with nice people, ya know), and as it turned out I needn’t have worried. The rain, and it’s complications, was true for everyone else. Folks were milling around and chatting when I got there. Richard was talking animatedly amidst lots of smiles with some people he obviously already knew. Since I was there by myself I made my way to a chair in the second row and settled in.

Richard spoke with one of the organizers. I gathered that quite a few people who had reserved places at the workshop had also been delayed. We were going to wait for a few minutes to give them time to show. Richard stood at the front of the room, hands in pockets, and waited with a slight shyness about him. After a moment our eyes caught and he came over to introduce himself. He was making a point to meet everyone. When we shook hands and I introduced myself, he smiled, “Oh, Travis, yes we’ve corresponded. Great! Fantastic! And, here we are meeting in person, face to no-face.” He beamed a nearly impossibly wide smile and pumped my hand enthusiastically.

That phrase turns out to be an important one for Richard, and he used it many times (to good effect) during the workshop. After the attendees who had been delayed by the rain more than I arrived, Richard started in.

My first exposure to Douglas Harding’s headless way was after I’d read an article that appeared in What is Enlightenment? magazine. (They have recently changed their name to EnlightenmentNext.) The article was a few months after Douglas passed away, and was a tribute to his many years of dedicated work sharing what was, for him, a terribly simple and hugely profound mystical insight. After reading the article I did a Google search, and came upon Headless.org. There I was exposed to the finger pointing experiment. Richard started the workshop with the same experiment. Prior to getting things started, Richard had asked for folks to share something about why they were there that night. I said that I had done some of the experiments on my own, loved the work, and wanted to experience them in a group environment. My desire was completely satisfied.

The first time I had done the finger-pointing practice, I was sitting at my desk at work. When I turned my pointing finger in toward what I am, what I was looking out of, I remember blurting out, “Oh, you have to be f*cking kidding me.” Made for a bit of a scene. The experience was as fresh, and more powerful, with a group of fellow people unabashedly staring a the tips of their fingers. As Richard said several times during the workshop, “This experience is completely non-verbal, non-emotional, non-rational. But, it works.” We can all express exactly what the experiment discloses in our own language, but the moment itself is expressionless. Which is kind of the point. In that moment you are directly staring into what the Zen Buddhist call your Original Face. The effect is momentous, an without a thinking component.

Richard drew a useful distinction here. This is that we have, in a way, two lives. We have our public life, which we share with everyone and everyone can see. Then, we have our private lives, which is were we can be truly what we are and which no one else can ever see. One of the paradoxes of life is that while our public lives can be, and are, extremely distinctive with no two exactly alike, the raw non-verbal experience of who we are privately is teh exact same for everyone. This distinction is what Richard calls “being the One, and the many.”
For me, this non-experience of simply pointing directly at yourself gets to the root of one of the core principles of all of the world’s mystical/spiritual traditions (and most of it’s religions), which is that ultimately in the quest for finding your true identity, place in, and relation to reality; you’re on your own. No one can do this for you. The Buddha said, when nearing his death, “Monks, you must work out your own solution to suffering. Please work very hard.” When someone else points there finger in your face it’s just a confrontation. It’s only when you do it for yourself that you can see what is revealed as the truth of you.

The other really profound thing about the experiments that Douglas, Richard, and others have come up with to explore the truth of being headless is how silly and simple they are. One feels foolish pointing at one’s face, or peaking through a face sized hole cut in paper, or staring at a strangers face through a tube, or at their feet. They seem like children’s games. In a way, they are precisely that. They are methods for looking at the original, open, un-separated and fully connected state we all started in. Not as a way to return that state, and regress to some infantile personality, but as a way to re-inhabit that state with fully formed adult awareness and sensibility. It is precisely their simplicity which is their strength. It is how they can bypass years of habitual conditioning. It’s also an echo of the words of many, many great sages down through the ages who have repeatedly told us how simple seeing reality is, how much of a non-issue enlightenment is.

The workshop continued with the single eye, spinning the world, the tube, the no head circle, and a variation of the mirror. Richard weaved them all together while sharing stories about Douglas, stories about his own sharing of this insight, and fielding questions (and soliciting reactions) from the audience. He also welcomed responses to questions from workshop members by other workshop members. (If you know me at all you will be unsurprised that I was very willing to speak up. I also managed to do some good listening too. I can be good when I try. Heh.) Several times Richard lapsed into a semi-awkward shy silence, and while it was obvious that he can get nervous in front of crowds he was not only improvising the workshop, he was also doing a damn fine job of it! It is rare in these circles to find someone coming across so genuinely and with such skill. He had the crowd rolling with laughter several times too, which supports a pet theory of mine that mystical insight has a strong tendency to foster one’s abilities as a stand-up comedian.

All in all, one hell of a day.

I would like to close with the following quote from the Headless website:

Living From The Truth

There’s no occasion in our working or leisure life when it’s inappropriate or inefficient to live from the truth. Agreed that the truth, so easy to see, is so hard to keep on seeing. But is life without it less hard? Is life lived from a many-sided lie a practical proposition? Let’s remember, let’s take courage from the fact that our practice isn’t changing our lifestyle, but noticing how we’re living in any case  as this Empty fullness, as this truly amazing union of perfect freedom and total involvement.

It’s never practical or healthy to live from a lie of any sort, but when that lie is about one’s essential Nature -  look out! Or rather, look in! Attend, as if for the first time, to the one Spot in the world that only you are in a position to inspect, to the Point that only you have inside information about, and witness its immediate explosion to world-wide dimensions. (Douglas Harding. Look For Yourself.)

Travis Eneix

Dedicated to looking at the self.