It falls very much in line with something I was pondering after my meditation practice this morning. My own frustration when thoughts come up to distract me during meditation. My own relationship with random thoughts showing up has softened a great deal over the time of my own daily meditation (today was day 1284.) For the most part I just watch them float by. When I do get caught up in them, and subsequently notice that I have been caught up, I note that and then watch it float by. This is easiest to do when the thoughts aren’t particularly troublesome. But, occasionally very negative images and impulses do come up. I used to have the habit of strongly denying them. Now, however, I have come to see that such creatures popping up are not invasions, but are rather the monsters of disowned shadow elements of my own existence being found by the growing allowance for the light of awareness to travel where it may.
I am in strong agreement with Ken Wilber and the other teachers of the the spiritual wing of the Integral Institute that meditation is not a proper therapeutic model for nearly all psychological troubles. It is wonderful though for bringing those troubles into the light of awareness so that they are not so easy to deny. In meditation when these beasts get seen and make a show, we would do well to be grateful for their appearance and the chance to consciously seek an effective means of integrating and adjusting them.
The sweeping beam of attention that meditation trains us to use consciously will not always show pretty things, but it will show us what is. It can give us the opportunity to face what is honestly rather than hiding from it to be ambushed at unpleasant times. We can re-meet these aspects of ourselves and find a way to transform their negativity into constructive and skillful means. Meditation will not do that for us, but it will reveal the issues so that we can use therapies tailor made for them.
I am grateful for finding the discarded pieces of my particular manifestation, even if I don’t always wish that they existed.