Archive for June, 2009

Within Is Not The Only Place For Authentic Inquiry But It Is One Of Them


25 Jun

We all see what is happening around us and to us through filters. Our conditioning, our reality-tunnels, our meaning grids. Whatever you wand to call them, they are there. Another word for these filters might be our maps of reality. Bearing in mind that the maps are never the territory, they can nevertheless prove immensely valuable when dealing with the overwhelming amount of input that we constantly receive as parts of reality. Looking at, working with, and editing these maps consciously, I would argue, is better than the alternatives; either having them occur by accidental trial & error, or (and this is by far the most common) having them handed to us by others and taking them on without questioning their validity.

One of the maps I am very fond of is the Integral Model put forth by Ken Wilber and the other researchers at the Integral Institute. It makes a (very good) attempt to be a model/map of the territory of all that is while remaining simple enough to use easily. One of the basic components are the four quadrants of reality. The idea here is not to pigeon-hole any particular occasion into one of these quadrants, but rather to recognize that any occasion can be looked at from these four distinct areas.

The four areas are made by crossing two borders. The first border is the one between the interior feeling content of an occasion and its exterior form or composition. This can be visualized as a square with what it feels like to be a thing on the left, and what that thing is constructed of on the right. The next border is is the one between being a single instance of the thing being examined, and multiple instances. On our square the upper half represents the single, the lower represents the plural.

There is a further distinction which need only be held lightly for the moment, which makes the four quadrants of the square into eight sections of a cube. Namely the front of the cube being the structure of the particular quadrant, and the rear of the cube being the raw material of that quadrant. In the upper right quadrant of the examination of a human being, the back of the cube would be the raw energetic and material bits, the front would be the organization of that stuff into atoms, molecule, cells, tissues, organs and what not.

If we examine a person in this model we see several areas where examination of the self can prove advantageous. In the rear of the upper right quadrant we can make sure we are getting proper nutrition to build the structures of the front of that quadrant and make sure proper healing and recovery are taking place. We can look at our place in society in the lower right quadrant and consider our job, and our social actions. We can look to the lower left and see how we are contributing to, and benefiting from our relationships and culture.

Now, to the point of this post. The upper left quadrant. This area is, in a nutshell, what it feels like to be a self, and the thoughts we juggle and recycle as we make our way through reality. The front of that quadrant is somewhat (if we are being honest and authentic in communicating our feelings and thoughts) open to examination by others by means of psychological modeling and behavioral mapping. The rear part though, the raw feel of being, is all us. Anything we communicate about this region obviously passes through the right side of our cube, since that is where external communication takes place. The inside (rear-upper-left) of our being is also not open to plumbing by anyone else. Here, in this most intimate of realms, we are on our own.

No one can access, or make changes to the inside of us as individuals. No one else can find the truth there. No one can explore this region but us. It is for that reason that I say that the Buddha never enlightened anyone. He had no way of pushing a magic button in this area that would make us “get it.” That’s why his dieing words were an exhortation to us to work out our own salvation and to do so diligently. Those sentiments appear again and again in all of the mystic and wisdom traditions of the world. If we want work done here, we have to do it.

Another implication is that, if we want to work on the totality of what we are, we need to not ignore any of the sections of our cube. I don’t mean an exhaustive exercising and improvement in all these areas is necessary, but an occasional looking in and watering of these different portions of the garden of our life seems to me to be a good idea.

Conditioning: You’re Soaking In It


24 Jun

Your life is a conditioned one. All aspects of it. Everything you see, hear, think and do is modified by and works through conditions. Your birth itself is conditional. Without the conditions of your parents having had intercourse, you would not be. The food you eat, the rest you get, the motorists not running you down, your life depends on a thousand and one conditions every day. Without these conditions you cease.

Likewise your decisions, comportment, and way of passing through life are all conditioned. Your beliefs, culture, habits, and physical composition all impose themselves on how you perceive, and how you interact with the world.

For my part, when I am able to watch myself closely I see that all of the reasons and justifications for the actions I take come after the fact in 99 cases out of 100. I may have truly brilliant reasons for something I said, or an action I took, but almost all of them, almost all the time, bubble to the surface and are realized after the fact. This is my natural state of affairs, it is the sum and substance of the life I live.

Such conditioning is inescapable. Some spiritual paths make a call for living an unconditioned life, living spontaneously in the moment, choicelessly aware. I say bollocks. Such a moment is much more likely to be accidental than not, and even then any thing done has a backdrop of conditions, even if one of the conditions is to be influenced by as few conditions as possible! It’s a goose-chase, and in my not very humble opinion something of a waste of time.

Now, having said all that I will say that something can still be done. Just because our actions may be, for a large (if not most) part non-spontaneous, and driven by conditioning does not mean there is nothing to be done. Quite the contrary. What can be done is to modify the conditioning. You can “re-program” yourself in certain ways to have the habitual conditioned response produce results more in keeping with whatever set of ethics, and morals you may claim to have. The methods for doing this are myriad, and I would suggest that doing it for yourself is a hell of a lot saner and safer than having someone else do it for you.

  • Journaling
  • Meditation
  • Psychotherapy
  • Voice Dialogue
  • Socratic Inquiry
  • The Sedona Method
  • A 4th-Step Inventory
  • Reflection
  • Daily reviews of our actions
  • Scenario driven role-play
  • Chaos Magik
  • etc, etc, etc

All of these can be used to uncover our habitual actions and the net of conditioning we carry with us. Likewise, simple “Aha!” moments of, “Why the hell did I do that?” are pure gold for showing us bald-faced the programming of conditions we carry with us.

A simple exercise I picked up from Robert Anton Wilson easily reveals the depths of this conditional existence, as well as it’s inherit-ness and necessity. Take a seat, put a blank piece of paper before you, and raise up a pen. (Note paper and pen are crucial to avoid ease of self-editing and second guessing while jotting the list.) Now, write down 10 “programs” that run in your life that keep that life going. Don’t get fancy. If you’re experience is anything like mine when doing this list you will have some entries which are purely physical in nature. They are the basic running rules of the human-animal body, the conditions without which life would not sustain. To me that was an “Aha!” moment of realizing just how ubiquitous, and needed, conditioning is.

Tripping the Intertubes


22 Jun

Random stuffs (I like) from surfing today:

To get through the hardest journey we need take only one step at a time, but we must keep on stepping. –Chinese Proverb

The 10 Cat Herding Pictures of Enlightenment over at MonkMojo’s 1,000 Cuts.

The Golden Verses of Pythagoras.

The Buddha Patch!

Very touching new reflection over at Do No Harm.

Filed under “Oldie but goody” we have this piece on the 23 Enigma by RAW. (When I was talking about this very video to friends over sushi the other day, the check came. Number A23, of course!)

Cheers!

Cafe Writer’s Ettiquette


22 Jun

Today I am enjoying the pleasure of writing at my favorite neighborhood cafe (Mission Creek on Valencia in SF. Word.) As I am getting my write-on, my brain tingling to the caffeine/fuel, looking at my fellow cafe goers, I am recalling a few passages scattered across various writing how-to books and blogs floating around in the mental miasma I call my brain.

The advice, for me, boils down to:

Buy something. Seriously. Doesn’t have to be much, but (for me) a couple bucks an hour in purchases seems not to small an amount to ask. You are basically renting a table, and rent means pay.

However, there is an interesting exception. If the cafe is not overfull, it does help to have some folks sitting around, busily enjoying their activities. It makes the place look more popular, and sucks passers-by in.

Somewhere in their is a balance, but a cheap cup of coffee, and the willingness to vacate your place in favor of a customer looking to buy a meal if the place is packed, feels about right to me.

Your mileage had damn well better vary, and I’d love to hear about it.

Cheers!

What Spiritual Dis-Ease And Morbid Obesity Have In Common


08 Jun

From a comment to Spiritual Experience vs. Realization (or What’s The Point, Anyway?), over at MommyMystic.com:

If part of what you are saying here is that the main plus of formal spiritual practice is that eventually you give up on it, and then are truly able to surrender, then I have to say, YES, it does seem to happen that way for some people.

It’s the same with dieting. We diet until we don’t need to anymore. This gets much more complicated when it comes into contact with reality, however. A person is morbidly obese, they have a sudden flash that they need to do something about it. They pick up a diet and start working it. Often they persist in the diet until they get to a weight that seems to make them happy, and then they drop the diet and gain back some, or all, or even more of the weight. The happiness fades and they pick up the same diet again, or turn away from it with a sense of betrayal and seek another diet.

The roller coaster continues. The seeker of a thin body continues the search, does the work, drops the diet cause they are “done”, gains back the weight and so on. The long term damaging effects to the seeker’s health that this pattern causes are well documented, and depressing. Still the well documented fact often don’t make much of an impression to the person caught in the yo-yo cycle since their immediate experience is one based on emotion, feelings of desperation, hope, depression, fear, isolation and dread.

Eventually, with a little bit of luck, or perhaps a momentary crack in the cycle brought about by some external circumstance, or internal clarity, a change takes place. The seeker becomes more concerned with making a permanent change to their lifestyle rather than a quick fix. They look to trying to feel and be healthy rather than feeling and being thin. At that point the word dreaded at many a weight loss support group rears it’s maligned head: maintenance.

When stuck in the yo-yo pattern of the thin-body seeker, the word maintenance sounds like just more work. It implies that the pain and discontent we feel while locked into an obese body will never end. It dashes hope of some sunny hereafter where we can finally eat whatever we want, in whatever amounts, and never gain a pound. Just like those lucky few metabolic freaks we know who we both despise and long to be. (Substitute here the person who never seems to be terribly unhappy and inherently free of the existential angst which is the seed affliction of spiritual seeking.)

When we make the shift away from the yo-yo cycle, through whatever means, and turn from thin-body seeker to healthy body path walker (those names need a little work), maintenance becomes not a burden but instead an expression of all the lessons we have digested along the way. We make healthier food choices, and move our bodies in enjoyable ways more often, because that is the person we have become. Maintenace is no longer drudgery, it is instinctual.

We have changed. Somewhere along the way, as we express our new way of being in the world, we come to the realization that we are the same as we were when we started. We were always just ourselves. We just showed up for life in a different manner.

Travis Eneix

Dedicated to looking at the self.