Archive for April, 2007

Second Reality is Twice Weirder than Fiction


30 Apr

I have an account on Second Life, but don’t play as much as I used to.  I originally got the account to research an idea for a science fiction novel involving virtual reality.  Second Life is odd, and in many ways not a classic game in the sense that there are no hard-and-fast measures of who wins and who loses.  Some call it a glorified chat room, and it is that and more.  I’ve been a party guy, a club owner, a bouncer, a toy manufacturer, and a t-shirt designer in SL.  Mostly I’ve been social and enjoyed interacting with others in a world that is almost completely of the denizen’s making.  But, for the most part it is a chat room and the worst elements of high-school level drama come out in SL combined with the telepathy like capability of passing notes in real time that cannot be intercepted (in the form of private chat messages and group tells).

I’ve seen a LOT of weird stuff in SL and a lot of jaw dropping drama.  But, the best to date did not happen to me.

A real life friend of mine recently discovered SL independently of me.  I showed her the ropes a bit, but she has been way more active than me of late.  She’s made some friends online.  One of them she began a dating romance with.  She entered into the situation cautiously as this other girl had recently lost her SL partner.  Partnering is the SL term for marriage.  And, when I say lost I do not mean they broke up.  This woman’s partner had been killed in a car accident, and the partner’s mother had logged onto the partner’s account to let her online friends know.

Pretty heavy stuff.

My RL friend is a sensitive soul and treated the whole matter with a great deal of respect.  She opened herself to this other person, and consoled her while they explored their new relationship.  Meanwhile the deceased partner’s online friends erected memorials and went about the grieving process.

Then the ball dropped.  The partner came back from the dead.  In a move that showcases the limitations of being mired in reality that day time soap operas must labor under, the partner returned.  She sheepishly explained that she had pretended to be her mother logging on because she thought that faking her death would make ending her partnership easier.  She claimed that she had been feeling like she was spending too much time online and needed to cut back.  Apparently, she rethought her decision and decided to return, realizing she missed her online community.  Only through the mask of online assumed identities could such a thing have been so convincingly pulled off.

And, the best part?  All of this ex-corpse’s friends were ok with it.  And, the girl my RL friend is involved with has forgiven the recently un-deceased and gone back to being her partner.

All of this occured over the space of days.  Seriously folks, you can’t write material like that.  It takes truly magnificent imaturity to put that level of mess together.

The moral of the story?  I’m not sure.  But, it certainly does highlight nicely some of the ways that SL is NOT RL!

Mondays


30 Apr

A rare flower’s smile

Drinks to celebrate nothing

No time to write

The Art of Peace – Eight


27 Apr

Life is growth. If we stop growing, technically and spiritually, we are as good as dead. The Art of Peace is a celebration of the bonding of heaven, earth, and humankind. It is all that is true, good, and beautiful.

I have heard, and I believe, that you are either improving in life, or degrading, you are never static.  Aikido is a study of resolving conflicts not only so that we are safe and kept whole, but so that everyone is safe and kept whole and the world is made a better place.   As we practice with that thought in mind, the thought of peace for the world, we improve our health and our spirit and ready ourselves to be useful for the service of peace.  Aikido is a worship of the beauty and wholeness of the world.

The Art of Peace – Seven


26 Apr

Eight forces sustain creation:
Movement and stillness,
Solidification and fluidity,
Extension and contraction,
Unification and division.

In many ways Aikido is a study of opposites. Each of the above forces are employed at different times in Aikido practice. One key that has been useful to me is to break down a motion into the above pairings and to contrast the attack being dealt with rather than complementing it. In other words, if the attack in question is an attempt to divide my energy, then I unify. If the attack is one that intends to contract my stance, I extend. In this way the energy of an attack is completed, and can be brought to a peaceful conclusion.

Another way to look at these pairs is to see how each can contain the element of its opposite.  By embracing stillness in movement we achieve grace.  Movement contained in stillness is power.  Contraction within extension leads to balance.  Extension within contraction is readiness.   Solidification within fluidity is focus, fluidity within solidification is adaptability.  Unification within division is wholeness, and division within unification is possibility.

Lastly we can look at complementing these energies to attain their opposites.  By matching a motion we attain a relative stillness.  By dividing with our partners we unify.  And so on..

Be careful what You say, it may come back to haunt Me


26 Apr

One of the tools I have learned for trying to make sense of my own life, and my reaction to it, is to trace reactions and impulses to the places in my life of crisis where they developed. I was thinking about body image today and remembered one of the incidents which contributed to my skewed image of my own body and my skewed image of the motivations of those who react to it positively.

I was at the hospital. I don’t remember what exactly for, but I was a fairly sickly child with multiple allergies, asthma, a persistent infection in my foot, and of course an obesity problem. I believe it was an evaluation for an exploratory surgery, but it might have been a follow up to having my tonsils removed. The doctor seeing me was a young, close-cropped hair type with the best of newly graduated intentions. He would not look straight at my mother, and barely at me, as he spoke about the concerns he had for my health and development since I carried “so much extra weight.” My mother has an obesity issue as well, and looking back I can understand why he might have been nervous about speaking with her about my weight issue without being at liberty to discuss hers. Adults do funny things at each other when kids are around. Anyways, the crux of this incident was when he reflected that I probably would be able to get a girlfriend despite my weight since, “there are some girls who are attracted to overweight men, called ‘chubby chasers’. Usually skinny girls who didn’t get much food as they were being brought up.”

Great! Thanks, Doc! I have a future of relationships with odd ball anorexic gals with fear of starvation. That’s really going to work out well as I pig out and they shiver with worry that I might eat all the available food and relegate them to starving again. Perfect!

Luckily for me if I ever met a girl with terrors of being underfed who was physically attracted to me I was too shy to notice. Thank God for looking out!

It’s a wonder how insensitive we can be sometimes with kids. But, what is more remarkable to me is how much of my evaluation of the relationships in my life have been informed by that one instance. Psychology is a weird, and very delicate thing. Looking back now I can have a conversation with that small, chubby boy who was me and try to set him straight. I can help him (and me) to realize that the Doctor’s words were well intended but truly ignorant. I don’t blame the Doctor for what he said, even though I do think at that moment he was kind of an idiot, but I can take responsibility now for how I continue to let his words affect me, and how much I can let them go.  We can’t change our past, bur we can re-frame our understanding of it and reform our reactions from it.

Travis Eneix

Dedicated to looking at the self.